Random Thoughts

Brianna had her first haircut (photos will be posted at a later date). She had been asking for a haircut for two weeks, so I finally took her. At first I was just going to get it trimmed, but then thought about how much food she gets in her hair and how it’s always falling in her face, so we decided on a bob cut with bangs. Instantly she looked two years older. Even after having two kids, I’m amazed at how fast they grow up. It’s just not right!

I got to hang out with some old friends at my best friend’s (Dr. Irene Avila) PhD graduation at ASU. We went down to Phoenix for a long weekend. It was perfect. I had so much fun. The kids were great. Greg and I were so proud of them and the whole weekend was entertaining. It was hot (over 100 every day) but wonderful. We also got to spend time with my Aunt Sue and cousin Kendra and her family. Liam and Brianna had so much fun with all the kids, their toys, and trampoline. I’m so proud of Irene. We graduated from college together back in 1995 or was it 1996, I can’t remember. Anyway, she was focused and there was nothing that was going to stop her from getting her PhD. She is truly amazing and tenacious and I feel honored to count her as a friend.

Greg’s had two business trips in the past month. So for two separate weeks, I’ve been a single parent. The first week he was gone was the worst. The kids just weren’t having a good week and I had no one to tag team with. It was exhausting. This past week (Greg flies home tonight) was so much better. I don’t know if it’s because I was relaxed from our mini-vacation in Phoenix or what, but I liked the kids much better this week and things went much more smoothly – even with Brianna having to stay home one day due to a fever (she’s fine now). Anyway, I feel bad that it takes Greg being gone for a week before I realize how much I depend on him – especially in the mornings when I’m not at my best. And props to all the single parents out there – more power to you!

This long Memorial Day weekend I plan on finishing the garage. We’ve slowly been putting all the stuff in the POD back into the new garage cabinets, but we still have half a POD to go. If I get nothing else done this weekend, I will get the POD emptied, so we don’t have to pay for another month of rental on it. Then I’ll be able to focus on having a party to show off the new, improved Boyd household.

I have so much to do besides just finishing the garage. I need to clean our house - Get our lives organized, since summer is coming and the kids will be on a new schedule – Plan Brianna’s 3rd Birthday party – Plan a BBQ/see the new improvements party – Upload photo’s from Easter to present – Figure out how to carve out time for Greg and I alone – make more time to spend with my friends – Go through all the crap in our bedroom and do some purging. Do you see the theme here – TIME MANAGEMENT. Something I’m not all that good at or I’m perfect at it. It’s really weird. I can set up a schedule and stick to it like nobody’s business for a couple of weeks and then it all goes to hell and I somehow lose the time to do anything. I’m still looking for the balance between all my competing sides (work, friends, family, husband, self). I LOVE being a team leader now, but I really hate that I had to give up my 30 hour work week.

I miss having all the time in the world to have crazy, philosophical discussions about bizarre things or important things or whatever. Just to sit around and talk to your friends about why the world is the way it is and how to make it a better place. It’s like time keeps speeding up and I can’t slow it down no matter what I try to do.

I’m having a little bit of a mid-life crisis because I’ll be turning 40 in October. 40! I feel like I’m still 28 (expect for the drinking thing). My dear friends and family keep reminding me that my 30’s were so full – I got married, bought a house, and had two children. I accomplished a whole heck of a lot in my 30s. Maybe that’s why they sped by so fast. I was so busy living my life that I didn’t stop and notice. Someone recently told me that every night before she goes to bed she writes in her journal all the things for which she is grateful. She said in the beginning it was sometimes hard to come up with something, but now she spends a lot of time writing because there is just so much to be grateful for. I think I need to start doing this. I really do have so much in my life, such a great life, and I just need to take a few minutes everyday to appreciate it more thoroughly – not just be a thought in the back of my mind. I need to be fully aware and cognizant of all the gifts I’ve been given – a patient husband, fun kids, a supportive family, good friends, etc. etc.